Passion.

As I type, my husband is far away in Atlanta, Georgia- trying to wrap his mind around the fact that he gets to play his viola with the Charlie Hall band at Passion 2012 in front of 45,000 people at the Georgia Dome tomorrow.

Also as I type, far from the roar and lights, I have just tucked away our children in their beds for the evening- wiping goopy noses and administering breathing treatments and medicines out the wazoo for a certain sick little boy of mine who struggles with asthma and allergies and eczema. Oh, and as a bonus for this week- eye infections!

(He really is doing much better tonight than he was last night… poor sweet little Myer!)

I can’t even explain the state of my heart tonight. It feels like it’s about to burst through the walls of this quiet little home. I feel so blessed to be here caring for all these boys, and it feels good and right and pure. There really is nowhere else I’d rather be! Yet at the same time, I also feel tremendous excitement and joy and desire to be in Atlanta with my husband… getting to see his wildest dreams come true and experience the fruition of a lifetime of prayers on my part and his- his passion for playing music that glorifies God and encourages His bride, the church!

It feels like a very symbolic thing that is happening in our lives (for such a time as this!) and for a very specific reason. Where we stand right now, there are a lot of unknowns. We don’t know where we’ll be or what we’ll be doing or what our lives will look like a year from now- as 2013 dawns bright and the confetti falls once again on soil all around this tired globe.

But we do know one thing.

It will be a new, grand adventure, and God will NEVER fail us.

He is faithful. He is faithful to let us see and taste a bit of our dreams in a season that has felt so thirsty for hope and substance… for answers you can grab onto and sink your teeth into. He is faithful to hear the cries of a simple housewife who longs to see her husband’s oldest and deepest dreams come true. He is faithful to grow a boy straight into the heart of music and then give him an instrument he can cup underneath his chin and make sing. He is faithful to finish what He begins, and He is faithful to encourage all along the long and difficult way.

My husband is a painting contractor. Day in and day out he labors with his hands and brings his best and most honest work to the table for clients who may or may not appreciate all that he pours into them and their homes. His hands are rough and calloused and sometimes they bleed and he doesn’t even realize the red is running down. But for as tough as his hands are, his heart… his heart is soft! His heart is tender! He longs for beautiful things and carries weighty giftings on humble and bowed down shoulders! And tonight… this week… this is a YES and an AMEN to that man who carries this family so gracefully through the muck and mire of this world! And my heart is just bursting with honor and pride in him, and gratitude and thanksgiving to the God he loves and serves so well.

I am overwhelmed. I am undone. I am here saying YES and AMEN as well. 2012 is going to be an amazing year.

“…I am God, and there is no other. I am God, and there is none like me, declaring end from beginning and from ancient times things not done, saying, ‘My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish my purpose!’ I have spoken, and I will bring it to pass. I have purposed, and I will do it.”

-Isaiah 46:9-10,11

15 thoughts on “Passion.

  1. i went to passion in…oh goodness. 2007, i think? it was a profound experience, and the MASSIVE corporate worship was no small part in that. what a blessing for your husband to be able to be there, sharing his talents and his songs in praise!

  2. So awesome Em! God is so good and I am so encouraged every time I read your posts. You guys are such an amazing family and I wish we lived closer. But I am thankful for Blogs to keep us connected. Grace and strength to you while you are are alone with your little men this week. And miraculous healing for little Meyer! Love you sweetie. :)

  3. I came to your blog tonight after reading your birth story on Chelsea's blog. Love it. I can see in your writing your heart for God. I will be following and looking forward to new posts. Thank you for pouring out your heart.

    ~Kristi at My Cup Runs Over, kristinewman.blogspot.com

  4. Wow, Emery! I'm so thrilled for your husband! What amazing words you wrote about him…laboring over a job that makes him bleed…but with a beautiful humble heart. That's so perfect! Can't wait to see where God leads you both!

  5. I was watching session 6 this morning and I totally saw your hubby!! I got so excited for you! I don't comment too often, but I adore reading your posts. Your writing is heartfelt and real. Which is so encouraging. So happy for you and your family and where the Lord is taking you all!

  6. TONS of my friends are at Passion2012 and I am so excited that your hubby got to play with Charlie Hall! I just started reading your blog–came over from Three Birds. Thanks for sharing!

  7. Whooo! Good luck to Chris! I hope everything went fantastically well. I am certainly excited for what this year has in store for your family!

  8. I'm happy for you to be so okay with being right where you are! I remember reading through other times when you didn't seem to have the peace you do now. Even though it would be so good to be with Chris when he goes to play, it is so good for your boys that you are happy to be home with them, too <3 And-such good reminders about God's faithfulness and finishing what he starts. It is so true (I am writing this from Perth, Australia on my day off from my full time nanny job. Another dream come true for me and I have to admit the timing was unexpected and so from God and the situation I'm in is better than I ever could have planned)

  9. I was at Passion 2012 and it was SO incredibly beautiful. God's presence was in our midst and He worked so clearly!
    I saw your husband playing and couldn't for the life of me think where I had seen him…then I remembered your blog and having asked you how you knew Charlie Hall a few months back!

    Crazy. Just thought I'd let you and your hubby know that you have reached public recognition status. :)

    – Ellie

  10. Thank you for sharing your husband with the 45000 of us who were at Passion 2012! What an incredible week it was- full of heart change and rich in God's presence! Keep the fire!

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