I’m sorry for my lack of posting lately… my schedule has done a 180 since Summer reared it’s ugly head, and I’m feeling totally disoriented and unsure of how to… live? Survive? Pull through?
I had a nice routine going this past Fall. Ezra was in school two days a week, plus we had a playgroup day, and we usually always had one other day filled with fun activities with friends as well. Since Summer started and Ezra’s school ended, I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing again. I’m back to AMATEUR status. I’m with the boy allllll day everyday, which results in meltdowns and tantrums and boredom… and me feeling like a lousy mom.
I’ve never been good at keeping Ezra busy with planned activities. We end up bouncing off the walls all day because it’s too hot to go outside. By 3:00, I’M DONE, and Summer has only just begun. I feel… worried. How am I going to pull through this season unscathed? I hate the heat, and now I have to be in ‘entertain’ mode all day. Add preggo hormones to that and you’ve got a ticking mom-bomb. Ezra simply refuses to play alone or do anything on his own all day. He follows me from room to room, asking “why dat like dat?” and the staple “what happened to me?”. (This is what he asks me whenever ANYTHING happens. It’s like he wants to know how everything in the world relates and affects him directly. So, like, even if a fly happens to land in the room he’s sitting in, he will say, “What happened to meeeee?”)
Lord, have mercy.
I’m now over 6 weeks in to this pregnancy, and I still feel extra large and in charge. I gaze down at my belly (which is now protruding farther than my BOOBS) (This either says something about my belly or my boobs, I’m not sure which at this point) and I remember how frustrated I was with my last pregnancy because it took SOOOO long for me to ‘show’. I don’t know what this is or what’s going on here, but my belly feels like it did at 4 months (at least!) last time.
I feel GREAT- pretty much totally normal with an extra helping of hunger- and the only other thing that I’ve noticed is the LEG THING again. It happened when I was pregnant with Ezra, too… every time I climb into bed and am about to fall asleep, my legs start aching and knotting and twisting and I have to jump back out of bed to stretch them and move them around. Sometimes they cramp up really badly. Last night I sat by the bed and stretched for 30 minutes before they finally calmed back down. This is… annoying. But nothing major. I’d take wiggly legs over puking my guts out ANY DAY.
My first doc’s appt. is June 19th. Does that feel like YEARS from now to anyone else besides me?
Chris keeps joking with me about how there might be more than one baby in there. If there is, we’re going to have to take our new car back to the store and try again– something with third row seating and room for infinity billion car seats.
Oh yeah! We bought a new car! It’s a Honda Element and it’s ORANGE. (pics coming tomorrow.) And you know what I’ve noticed? Elements are the kind of car where people in other Elements WAVE TO YOU when you pass them on the road.
THEY WAVE! How bizzare! Does this happen to any of you in your make/model of cars? Or is it only an ‘Element’ thing? And, should I join the waving club? Or keep my hands on the wheel?
I’m so confused.