My DVD Player has become a Toaster Oven.

Suspect #1

I’ve been feeling restless- like I’m wanting to find exitement and meaning… a tangible goal to aim my life towards. Something on the other side of my front door. Something to wake up to and fight for and work hard for. Something to strive towards and earn. Something that is mine completely. I’ve heard it said that this feeling is quite common for stay-at-home moms such as myself.

Yet, at the same time, I’ve also been feeling really l a z y. Like the effort to go anywhere is too much and I can think of a million-and-one excuses why it would be much more logical to just STAY HOME. I haven’t wanted to call anyone or hang out at all. When I do have the opportunity to go out somewhere on my own, I suddenly realize that I have no idea where I’d go and even less motivation to physically get there. (One can only wander the isles of Target so often… You know it has become too often when you start to notice the misplaced items on the shelves, and before you know what you’re doing, you are taking the item back to its proper place… shaking your head like you just stumbled upon your husband’s dirty laundry on the floor again after repeated attempts to get him to just PUT IT IN THE LAUNDRY BASKET ALREADY.)

I find myself wishing that I had more time for myself… more of a ‘life’. Then comes the full-blown pity party where I tell myself life ‘isn’t fair’… all the while knowing FULL WELL that if someone were to walk up to me right now and say, “Okay, Emery! Free unlimited babysitting for as long as you want it, starting now! You’re free to do whatever you want!”, I would STILL find excuses to stay home and take way too many baths and read way too many books and eat way too many Pepperoni Pizza Hot Pockets. (But they’re LEAN pockets, people! That means they’re ‘healthy and really good for you’, right?) (This is the part where I pretend I’m on a diet.)

So, how do I kick my lazy butt into gear already? How do I become motivated as a mother and as a human being again?

And, while we’re at it, how do I get plastic forks out of my VCR and slices of quesedilla out of my DVD Player?

(And don’t say tweezers, because I’ve already tried that.)

2 thoughts on “My DVD Player has become a Toaster Oven.

  1. i well tell you the sad truth, you well have to have the vcr apart and with the grece, youll have to get a new dvd player. but look at it this way trips to the stores are pretty adventerous!!!

  2. Emery, I am sorry but I am laughing at the thought of food being put in your electronics. Josiah has been trying to put dvds in my vcr lately and Julia likes to shove the videos in backwards. I laugh because kids just find ways to entertain themselves and push limits…Ezra will get it and he will be running the remote control and putting his own movies in, then feeding the vcr or dvd player with people food or utensils will no longer be an issue. They learn so quickly and Ezra is a very smart boy but you know that already :) Take Care

leave a comment!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s